Monday, August 9, 2010

Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fond

It's funny how time can at some points feel like a vast expanse, and at others a quickening blur. A moment is always a moment, yet depending on when it falls, it hurries past or seems to linger. Most are forgotten, some are treasured, and a few strike with such force that they send our entire world into another orbit, or so it seems. For life can change in but a moment.

My beautiful step-mom Suzanne passed away on Saturday, June 12th. Near 7:30 that evening, she stormed the gates of heaven, in an indelible earthly moment that left those of us who cherished her to face a whole new normal, one moment at a time.

My absence from this space was born of necessity, as life became too full and busy to make time for the computer. Then, it seemed an avoidance motivated by sadness and lack of interest. Writing daily tidbits about life seemed of little importance in light of the struggles of those I love. I have often wondered (in my selfish ways!) if anyone tarries here with much interest anyway. But with the passage of time came the realization that I don't just blog intending to communicate with the outside world. I do it because the moments, they do pass by quickly. And without a record of the little things, I tend to forget the things that made me think, made me smile, made me grateful, or just made a memory. I miss keeping track of the little things, for in the small moments there is much joy to be had. This space is for me, and I do believe it is time to get back to the business of jotting a few things down.

Kids are growing, new recipes are being tested, quilts are in the making, vacations are being taken, and photos are being snapped daily. There are moments of great sadness and loss. There are moments of expectant hope and joy about all the blessings to come. There are moments of peace that God is in control, no matter what. And in all those moments, surely there are some blog posts somewhere.

If you're settling in with me, welcome back. I'm glad you're here. I've much to share, and so happy to have a space to do it.


K Groenbeck said...

I was wondering what had happened. I'm so sorry about Suzanne, hope your Dad and your family find comfort in your memories of the great times you all had together. I hope your faith has helped you thru this difficult time. Please know that I have been praying for you and your family knowing that something wasn't right due to your absences.

Kelli said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Suzanne. I have been praying for you and your family this summer and will continue. (((hugs)))

Virginia in Hot Springs said...

Glad you are back. We so relish the glimpes inside your family and your busy lives. You are all so special to us!

Katie said...

I am so happy you are back. I have missed reading up on your family - keeping that old phrase "out of sight doesn't always mean out of mind"...and certainly not out of heart. ((hugs)) :)

Angelsoup said...

Beautiful and eloquent post. Welcome back. Have missed your yarn spinning on life. I continue to pray. Always in my heart.